Anyway I will not bore you with my writing skills because I know you all want to know the happenings of  last one week. Everyday I just wait for her to communicate with me. It actually happened to me. But I am very upset with her. If she thinks a bit about me she could have contacted me once or twice. But the language in her communication was self explanatory. I didnt reply her. Because I am angry but at the same time I just cant live without saying anything to her.

I was there with my friends and they all were discussing about love being difficult to take place. I don’t go with them. I am sure for it to take place b/n us. Facts always been far from the logics. You guys can laugh on me for let her not realize her place in my heart. That’s love for me. The love  sixteen year old guy can have in his heart. It seems that all the songs and poetry are made for me.

Hey !!!!!!!!!! I will be following my parents. You know what I mean to say. Better you give me a chance to know you and vice versa. I am confused whether to reply you or not. Some one says “set your love free and if it comes back to you then it is really love”. I am no wrong. I do it and wait for your curiosity to turn into craziness.

For my closing lines I will say…………

you can make me happy……….yes you ….its you katrina

When you are sad, I will dry your tears
When you are scared, I will comfort your fears
When you are worried, I will give you hope
When you are confused, I will help you cope
and when you are lost, and can’t see the light
I shall be your beacon, shining ever so bright
This is my oath, I pledge till the end
Why you may ask, because you’re a friend.

Any ways I am happy that I could explore myself and find feelings inside me. I was never sure if I could feel something for someone. But I think it has started.

Whenever I am with  friends and watch them with their couple. I  think of having that feeling in me. But never felt of……

The summary of life for the guys like me is ” Kahin zameen to kahin aasmaan nahi milta, ae khuda sach kaha tune kisi ko mukkammal jahan nahi milta”.

I was always searching the innocent  feelings of a 13 year old guy. But this attraction is like this. You never know what can make you think like a school boy. After I came to Delhi, I learnt so many things. Some were good but some weren’t.  And I don’t think those bad experiences make your life hell. In fact they help you to learn a lesson. Here I saw a girl making fool of her boy friend by having other  parallel relations. A guy showing the false image of his life without his girl. Both of they know the reality but close their eyes in ignorance. As if they know that it is not about love but performing this.  So many examples and incidents made me develop the feeling of insecurity for love.

When I was child and pandit Ji used to visit our place, he used to tell my Maa that this guys will surely have love marriage. The belief of having love marriage became strong day by day. And I thought of going with this feeling as it is not possible to  change my destiny. But nothing like that happened(except in class 6). Friends started calling me heartless. But that’s not my fault if I could not love someone. I gave up and decided to go for arrange marriage.
But destiny plays game with you. After the incident that my mom told me, I can sense that feeling in me that makes me curious and think of “HER”.  I dont know the future but this stage of thinking a lot about “HER” is heart toucing. May be she also know and like me but never show.  Hope to catch you soon my “katrina”.
Lets see till when this hide and seek game continues…………………..

But dont delay…………lets give a chance to know each  other

Days continue……….

This is the third day and I am still not sure if she knows the story going behind the scenes.  you know I just hate  confusing states. But I don’t know why I like this one. The biggest problem with me and this story is, I cant disclose the names of the characters here. Because the talks are going on of  marriage. And I can not afford to disclose the name. lets see when next she checks my profile. I am waiting for you to check my profile and leave comments. and hey dont be confuse yaaar You are right It is surely  you.

STORY GOES……….

Days are passing but story is not moving ahead. I am afraid if she has some one else in life. Some time I think what is the point of thinking so much about her. Let it be like this. But I want some one who is innocent enough to handle me. I know I cant be happy with some one who is fighting with me every day and some extra clever then required. That is why I have an interest in her.

I found her a little different from other girls. She does not like chatting very much. She does not talk rubbish. And she is not romantic ( What I feel). I know my choice, a little different. Few days back I got a chance  to talk to her. Nothing as such happened in talks. But when I told her that keep your parents happy so that they will search a good partner for you. She replied what is so hurry to get married. There is no hurry to get married. But I am in hurry to know you. At least I should be clear on my stands.

Lets see what happens next. But it seems that we have something in our destiny.

My destiny……..My love….and you girl………

See that’s why I call this my destiny which again and again gives me hint and makes me think about her. She tries to follow on my clues but never makes me sure. Any ways the story goes in either direction I hope for the best. I was just thinking of old days and found myself lost in the nostalgia. Is it not funny that a simple incident makes you think totally different?

Earlier I never thought of writing some thing like this because I didn’t think the way I have started now. She was just a sweet girl for me and see now she mean something important to me. When I don’t get the news about her for so long I get worried that what could have gone in her mind. And if something is going or its  only me who is thinking so much. I don’t know but her comments make me smile. The comments for those I always check out my profile. When I don’t find them I am sad but the moment I just see her in my profile I just get another chance to write something and express my feeling in words.

I am thinking to much that’s bad ………..

May be good……

Keep smiling girl……………

A long way to go……….

Few of my friends are really curious to know more about the girl. Even I want to foresee the happenings.  Here I am developing a special bond with her. Often I think of her and wait for her messages. Last time when we were talking we shared a kind of bond. She was nice. She talks very simple. I asked her so many questions. They all were very stupid but she was answering all of them. It was very funny.

I know it’s not good to have dreams about the love because it hurts a lot when someone breaks them. But at the same time I feel energized when I think of her. She stops me going on the wrong way. Last time she did not find anything for me to say. May be she is angry at me. If she is, then its good for me because this way I get to know her insight, her inclination as well.

For the last few days I have been asking just one question from all of my friend. ” What do you or some one else can think of me after going through my blog and orkut profile as well?” I did not get the best answer. Because they do not think that ways. but I feel she might get some wrong impression about me. The worries go up with my mon telling me what could happen because of the orkut profile. Orkuting is famous among teenagers in our side but still a non actualized story for our guardians. I was told how a marriage broke just because of the orkut profile of the guy who was having his fun and party pics on orkut. The people from girl’s side saw those pic in which he was enjoying with his friends with some drink’s glasses lying on the table. Thats it…………………….

Not to worry about , She can’t be that silly. She understands everything.

For closing notes I would like to say that I just enjoy her company. Doesn’t matter for a little while she comes and we talk. Lets wait for her reply.

Lets wait for her to tell me something…….

Lets wait for good things to take place………..

Amen…………………………………………………

More to come….

This Amen didn’t work that ways. I had a talk with her. But didn’t feel that good. She is like dat or girls are like dat only. I don’t know everyday it becomes confusing. I think I should give it a stop now. She might not be thinking dat ways. It is only me who is taking things in my own ways. I will come on the back foot now.

Let the destiny decide the best for me………………………………..

What more????

I don’t know how many ups and downs will come. Or its only me who is considering these as ups and downs and there is nothing like that. Anyways It is just to tell myself that it has been more than a week we had no talk. A sense of insecurity comes often in mind to be true. But than I try to keep myself busy in work so that I can achieve what I have planned in next one year.

But there is one more thing that I know for sure that I am afraid to loose a good girl for her to be my life partner. Because this is what I have come to know is something very difficult to get. I am a bit aggressive so I want my life partner to be a little calm and stupid. I like stupid girls.

I like you……….Better you start liking me

Thode bheege bheege se thode nam hai hum,
Kal se soye voye bhi to kam hai hum.
Dil ne kaisi harkat ki hai,
Pehli baar mohabbat ki hai,
Aakhiri baar mohabbat ki hai,
Pehli baar mohabbat ki hai,
Aakhiri baar mohabbat ki hai…

Aankhein doobi doobi si surmayee madham,
Jheelen paani paani hai bass tum aur hum,
Hmmm baat badi hairat ki hai,
[Pehli baar mohabbat ki hai,
Aakhiri baar mohabbat ki hai] – 2 times

Hmmm khawab ke bhoj se, kapkapati hui,
Halki palkein teri yaad aata hai sab,
Tujhe gudgudana… satana yuhi sote hue,
Gaal pe teepna… meechna bewajah besabab.

Yaad hai peepal ke jiske ghane saaye the,
Hum ne gilehri jhoothe matter khaaye the,
Yeh barqat unn hazrat ki hai.

[Pehli baar mohabbat ki hai,
Aakhiri baar mohabbat ki hai] – 2 times
Hooo..hoooo…….hoooo…

zindagi ne kar diyaa jab bhi udaas
zindagi ne kar diyaa jab bhi udaas
aa gaye ghabraa ke ham manzil ke paas
sar jhukaayaa, sar jhukaakar ro diye
aapke pahloo mein aakar ro diye

shaam jab aansoo bahaati aa gayi
shaam jab aansoo bahaati aa gayi
har taraf gham ki udaasi chhaa gayi
deep yaadon ke jalaakar ro diye
aapke pahloo mein aakar ro diye

gham judaayi kaa sahaa jaataa nahin
gham judaayi kaa sahaa jaataa nahin
aapke bin ab rahaa jaataa nahin
pyaar mein kyaa-kyaa ganwaakar ro diye
daastaan-e-gham sunaakar ro diye
aapke pahloo mein aakar ro diye

” The sky is fallen down and water river has gone up”

Can you explain this???????

Some time I find myself lost in the nostalgia of that day

when we were out for the first time.

She was innocent, she was chilly

she speaks slow, but was witty

She doesn’t see in you

but her eyes kill inner in you

She was an naughty angel

who gently moves her love buds around you,

Gives a life time memory and a snake in you.

I am just trying to hold that dream in my eyes

and wish to carry on my night

How would you overcome my love

When you know dreams are mine

and you are my girl.

Life is an opportunity,
benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is costly, care for it.
Life is wealth, keep it.
Life is love, enjoy it.
Life is mystery, know it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious,
do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

Mother Teresa

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